it gets better, then it gets worse.... the never ending road.?

[littlecutie]

i am 14 and have been struggling with severe ocd since i was 6. i wash my hands and worry about everything, germs, future, life, grades. i am constantly trying to be perfect, something i understand i cant achieve but still continue to strive for. it was getting better, i was happier, and hopeful. its the end of grade 8 and wanted a happy year, a happy grad. im not giving up, but i am frustrated with myself. im on prozac, weekly counselling, and try to run off my worries or keep myself occupied. and today, as i sit here typing this, my friends that i invited to sleep over, sit behind me watching a scary movie, which i love, but could not enjoy because its dark out and i am constantly worried about the door and break ins. i am not looking for pity, but i am looking for the truth and some helpful advice. does anyone with ocd ever find themselves feeling worry free after a while? what are the best non medical things to occupy yourself with (for example: yoga) and basically any helpful advice or stories. i am a strong girl and i will NEVER give up, ever. ocd is my fight, just like cancer or any other disease, its my job to fight it, to take control of my life and brain and realize the good. i love my life. i love my life and life in general, and believe that ocd is a battle i will succeed in.

[Jane766]

You are a very smart and mature person. It sounds like you are already dealing with your OCD better than any other person I know.

I think you are just in a funk right now. But it will turn around and you will feel better. You are a very positive person who has a better understanding of yourself than anyone else I know of. Yes, you can occupy yourself with yoga, exercising, reading .. anything that you enjoy and will help keep your mind off of OCD.

It is hard giving advise to a person who has so much confidence in themself. It sounds like you are qualified in giving people advise about being positive, never giving up, fighting for their life, taking control of their life, being confident, etc. You can truly be helping people yourself.

Continue doing what you are doing and don't let things worry you. Also know that everyone worries about something.. it is normal. I don't think there is anyone who will tell you that they are worry free.

It sounds as if you have it all together. Just don't put too much pressure on yourself. You are fine.